Not much to say...

Is it possible to get to the point where you have no emotion?

Something happens and I should have emotion about it....why is it then that I just feel nothing.

There are flashes of emotions... of anger, betrayal and hurt that come and go...but mostly, there's not much going on. I am confused and don't understand why things have to be like this...but I am not angry at my Heavenly Father. If anyone would listen and understand, it would be Him and I am confident in that. I don't have much to say. I want to tell those close to me how much I love them, but I don't want to speak. I don't want to communicate about my life.

This can't be good, I know...but I feel powerless to change it.

Tears come and go, apparently just like the heart comes and goes for some...

Hear my prayer of God...give me the innocence of a baby and the trust of a child.

Wow, long time..no write!

Ok, so I have not been on here for forever and I feel so bad. Not that anyone actually reads my tiny little blog, BUT it does make me sad that I have neglected it for so long. SO I will try my best to keep it updated throughout the year and see what happens...=)

But for now, I will give the highlights of my summer....Which of course includes weddings. Oh yes...this was the summer for weddings!! :)

First of all, my dear friend Mayerly got married.

Although not a "classy" picture, this describes us four and I

LOVE IT!!!

I was able to nanny my dear kids again.

Marlea(10), Payton(7) and Denali(4)

are growing up way to fast, but I loved

spending a second summer with them!!!

And finally, my dearest friend Emily was married on August 1.

Her and Mitchel's wedding was beautiful and she made for a

stunning bride, like I knew she would! :)

That's all for now folks...I hope you enjoyed this glimpse into my summer of 2009. Next posting.....what's going on in my life these days! :)