Heartache

If there is one thing that I have learned about myself these past two months...it is that when I love...I love deeply. The Lord seems to have created me with a heart that doesn't easily let go of things. You see, this fall, my heart was broken. It was broken by someone I held very dear and for the first time, I truly experienced heartache. It is something that I am still contending with. Figuring out that it's ok to cry myself to sleep at night. That it's ok to miss the happy moments and to look back on all the memories I had made with this person. That heartache was never intended to be in this world. It makes me yearn for the perfect world that the Lord originally had wanted for us. How do I deal with this? Well, I take it step by step. Every day is a new day...a new day to grieve my first love and best friend. My prayer is that I will one day be loved for me. And to be enough for that someone the Lord has for me. That is if God intends for me to be married or not. But even with all the pain and sorrow I have gone through, I have learned this...It is better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all.

The Oregon Coast

I have been in Oregon for about 3 months now and it's gone by so fast!!! We have all our children (otherwise known as students) here and life is now crazy! :) There has recently been a sick epidemic going around, don't worry, it's not the swine flu...and so that has been keeping our deans busy. The second year program is up and running in it's first year. It's been an exciting process and I am looking forward to seeing how the Lord is going to continue blessing it. This is a new experience for us permanent staff and there are lots of little details that you wouldn't have otherwise thought of. For instance....how do you be in two places at once? How do you pass out tests for first year students at 9:30 Monday mornings and pass out tests for second year students at 9:30 on Monday mornings? haha All these things are being taken care of though and figured out. Life is good here on the Oregon coast and overall God has blessed me with this opportunity to serve on staff at Ecola. I love my boss, Dave, and enjoy serving him in anyway that I can. He is the sweetest man and has a wonderful heart for ministry. I have also enjoyed getting to know the assistant director, Dave's son Josh, and becoming apart of his family's life. Josh has a beautiful wife Joy and two adorable children! Although I haven't had the privilege of babysitting them yet, I am looking forward to that night. :)

My current obstacle in life is that I have no car. Now of course this isn't truly an obstacle, considering nothing is impossible with God, but I must admit it does have me frustrated.

I am hoping that it'll all work out in the Lord's timing though.

Well, that's all for now. I hope all is going well in blogging world!! :)