Heartache

If there is one thing that I have learned about myself these past two months...it is that when I love...I love deeply. The Lord seems to have created me with a heart that doesn't easily let go of things. You see, this fall, my heart was broken. It was broken by someone I held very dear and for the first time, I truly experienced heartache. It is something that I am still contending with. Figuring out that it's ok to cry myself to sleep at night. That it's ok to miss the happy moments and to look back on all the memories I had made with this person. That heartache was never intended to be in this world. It makes me yearn for the perfect world that the Lord originally had wanted for us. How do I deal with this? Well, I take it step by step. Every day is a new day...a new day to grieve my first love and best friend. My prayer is that I will one day be loved for me. And to be enough for that someone the Lord has for me. That is if God intends for me to be married or not. But even with all the pain and sorrow I have gone through, I have learned this...It is better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all.